It’s been a while since I last blogged. Similar to the rest of the world, I’ve been trying to process what happened this year. It started off in March as a bit of a shock and before I knew it, I was sitting on my couch, dressed in jammies, attending a Zoom meeting in December. Wait, is it really December already?
This year was supposed to be great, yet I can’t somehow stop myself from feeling that it’s worse than the leather pants incident that Ross had at his hot date’s apartment. 2020, the start of a new decade, new promises, new adventures and aspirations, however for the most part, the only footprint that I’ve so far has been in my kitchen, couch and bedroom! And the only form of travel that I’ve indulged in has been in desserts and foods from different parts of the world, all either made at home (who knew I could cook) or take away from restaurants.
There you go. As someone who’s always maintained a positive stance and tried to look at the silver linings, I’ve got none. I finally admit that this year’s taken away the spark from me and left me often wondering what it really means to live and how we humans definitely are social creatures. I lost one too many family members, including my grandmom whom I hadn’t seen since over 2 years and was the last of my grandparents, heard way too many instances of close ones contracting the virus and reeling from aftereffects, saw the worst in mankind when I was at the retail store, and essentially, I’m the epitome of being a paranoid person within my age group.
But then again, it’s been a year I wouldn’t want to forget. I had my most humbling experience living the nightmare with my fellow retail colleagues at the store, transitioned to the corporate office, moved out to the “countryside” and taken up fitness as a way of life versus simply justifying the baked goods calorie intake. I dabbled a bit in learning Spanish, baked some gourmet stuff that I could have only dreamed of making, solved higher grades of climbing problems and became a lot more organized in prioritizing myself, people close to me and all that really matters. While I haven’t seen my mom since over a year and managed to meet my dad for a bit earlier this year before things blew up, I’ve made it a point to talk more often, even if for the most part we’re reminiscing fondly or discussing recipes. My adorable, furry dog nephew was born this year and came home to my sister and brother-in-law a few months ago – I mean come on, who can resist those soulful eyes and puppy head tilts? Most of all, I’m grateful to have had someone accept every possible emotion I may have displayed and still choose to be my partner.
I went from meeting thousands of people at the store every day to seeing my reflection for the most part since everybody’s working remotely right now. As a social butterfly who is as it is not meeting her family or friends, this took a greater toll on me than I would’ve expected. But then again, it gave me an opportunity to enjoy my company, relish my house, be okay with embracing the wonders of culinary marvels among many other things.
With the legendary winters ushering in the holidays less the usual cheer, I wonder how many of us will give into social interactions even though there seems to be some hope in the form of vaccinations a few months down the lane. I wonder, if we’ll be able to find peace within ourselves and protect each other instead of chasing that instant gratification that seems to define us more with each passing day. Mostly, I wonder when I’ll be able to see my family in person and hug them tight.
This pandemic erupted as a result of human actions and can be contained when we unite together (not in a meet in person way but do what’s needed to help prevent the spread) . I can’t even imagine how this year has affected so many of us in different ways and as we near the end, I’m taking this opportunity to reflect back on all the good things that happened. Because try as we might, this year does exist and is going down in the history of mankind because life as we know it has changed for the foreseeable future. What we do have is hope and it’s what keeps us going. Hug yourself for having come this far and know that there’s hope.
After all, rebellions are built on hope.
It gets worse before it can get better,
Isolation has us wanting to untether,
Along comes hope packaged in a vial,
Along comes hope after many trials;
‘Tis the season of love and joy,
Lockdowns have us super annoyed,
There’s hope waiting at the other end,
There’s hope in the form of Pfizer blend;
Make the most of what you can,
Relish moments even when things don’t go as planned,
Hope is what keeps us going,
Hope is what keeps us growing.